Nicole's LiveJournal...

Ok, everyone, I know its been a while, but I haven't forgotten, I swear. I just haven't had much free time to post in here.

I'm headed home this afternoon, and then I have tons of family stuff to do until Monday, kinda. So, we should get together sometime between Monday and Friday if you people want to hang out. Call me, we'll chat. 251-377-8386.

I'm headed into work for a few hours, and then over to get Heather so we can drive the 3 hour drive home... I hope everyone's day is wonderful! Talk to you later!

This week has been so weird. I hate dealing with things unexpectedly. I hate feeling like I have to juggle so many different plans... its weird to describe. I have too much to do this weekend. I have to seriously study for French, PolySci, and Philosophy, and then I've made some different commitments to people...

I want to scream. And on top of that, I've been overloading myself at work trying to get an entire household's worth of policies... and I feel like I'm being stretched out between a million different tasks. I get so angry sometimes because I'm killing myself to survive financially, and others just don't understand that. They don't understand that I'm busy, not too busy for them, but just busy. They don't see how stressed I am. And, it has nothing to do with them, but I get ticked when they start blaming me for not having any time. I'm in college full time, I work when I'm not in class. So give me a break. Especially when you should know the stress of school as much as I do.

I need a vacation. Seriously. Or just maybe an Advil.

Ok, I'm going to work now... again. Hope everyone has a better day than my week has been so far.

Ok, time to vent.... you know what I hate? Friends who don't return phone calls.

I am so sick of calling someone five times when they know good and well its me and know why I'm calling. It wouldn't be so bad if they weren't close friends. I just don't get it. After all the crap I do and am there for them, they won't answer the phone? No. I refuse. I have played this game before earlier in the semester and things are right back where they were....

1st phone call (12:00): No answer, I leave voicemail.
2nd phone call (3:30): No answer, I hang up.
3rd phone call (6:45): No answer, I hang up.
4th phone call (7:30): They answer like its the first time I've called.

I mean, Hello? How stupid can you be? I know you have seen my missed calls. I know you are aware of your new voicemail because we have been friends for a while and I know more about your phone than you think I do, apparently. Oh yeah, I also know that your phone is basically attached to you at all times, so I know you're just ignoring my call.

Well, thats ok. If you want to play games like we're in third grade, we can. It's not like you haven't done it before... And I'm not going to be the do-everything-for-everyone person anymore. No, I will not proof your stupid papers, no I will not help you pick out some slutty outfit you shouldn't be wearing anyway, and no I will not go with you anywhere because you're too chicken to go alone. I am not a babysitter, I am a friend. If you can't deal with that, there's a whole section in the yellow pages for babysitters.

So, if you're reading this because A:you are these people and you won't ask about my problems in real life so you have to read my LJ to know whats going on, or B:you're just completely oblivious to the way I feel.... maybe you should take a look at the situation.

Ok, I feel better now. Goodnight everyone.

Its cold outside. :( I hate cold weather.
That's pretty much it, just wanted to complain about that...

Hope everyone has a warm(er) day! :)

Name 10 things (in no particular order) that make you happy. Not in any particular order.

1. Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream on a hot day.
2. The movie- "Miss Congeniality"
3. Having free time.
4. Diet Coke with Lime.
5. Playing outside on a cool day.
6. Driving around with no purpose.
7. Getting out of class early.
8. Winning football games.
9. Listening to angry music on a bad day.
10.Blockbuster movie rentals.

I am sick. Like really sick. And all of my friends are home in Slutsuma. Hm.

So right now I'm reading my incredibly boring Philosophy book and watching some crazy Ben Affleck movie... never seen it before, but its got some killer stunts, so its pretty sweet.

Bama won today. Which is awesome... I can't wait til we kick Auburn's butt later on. :)

My friends got engaged last night. I'm so jealous! They went to Galinburg and my friend, Isaac proposed on the top of a mountain! Isn't that romantic. And my friend, Emily, his fiance, is gorgeous, and I can't wait to see her in a wedding dress... I told her she was giving me wedding fever with all this marriage talk.

Ok, I am going to get in bed again... I'm worn out from being sick. I hope everyone had a good night. :)

So, I'm finally updating. Crazy, isn't it? It's been like 37 forevers since I did. Right now, I'm sittin at my apt and eating some ravioli. It's pretty good stuff. And cheap too. :) I feel really sick. I just read Jessie's blog, and I think she/I got me/her sick... I dunno. Its feels like the flu and strept throat are fighting inside my immune system... maybe so.

I am so tired right now. I went to bed at 3:30 last night, and then woke up at 7:30. I had to stay up and finish a Mass Comm project and take an online test for Rhetoric, a.k.a. Hades. Grrr. But, luckily its over now. I came home after work to take a nap, but due to the constant talking that has happened in this apt. ever since then, it is impossible to sleep. I am not a mean person, but sometimes I just want to shout "Go Away!!!" and lock myself in my bedroom.

I think I'm changing my major. I... well... ya know... ok, so I hate Communications. I'm still going to major in PolySci, but now I think I will minor or just add Business as a 2nd major. So confusing. The more and more I think about it, I realize that the majority of the people on this planet pick a career based on the salary. That drives me nuts. How do you know in 5 years that you won't suddenly lose your job? What do you do when the BMW, Lexus, and Benz car payments are all due, and you're broke? Ok... what I'm trying to say is, I just wish we could all think with our brains sometimes. I mean, thats why we have a brain. People who choose a career based on money start out buying everything in sight... and then they can't stop. I know, I'm going a little nuts over it, but still... I want to find a career, but not one that requires me to become materialistic to do so. :)

I have an A in French right now. Which is awesome. I'm thinking about possibly working that into my minor or something... ha, you know whats funny? I've changed my major like 11 times in 4 semesters! HA! Oh well. I guess there's no better way to start out #5 than by changing it again...

This week has been sketchy... this past Saturday, a friend of mine died. The entire community is wondering if it was suicide or homicide. No one knows, yet. I've been dealing with it in a weird way. It's just strange to me. I dont know. I just got off the phone with Lauren Mayo. We were talking about him. See... he was the first Gator at SHS. The very first. My mom and Lauren's mom both had him in class, and Donna used to be the sponsor of the cheerleaders. Lauren and I basically think of him as like the perfect older brother we never had. I'm upset about it. And freaked out. I don't handle death well. I'm scared of it. I hate even thinking about it. But sooner or later, everyone dies. I just don't want to be here when it happens. I hoep God comes back ASAP. Then I won't have to deal with it.

So, lately I've been depressed. Not really about anything, but just in general. I mean, other than the above paragraph, everything in my life is going very well. I have Matt, I'm at the school of my dreams, I have a good job, and I'm back on track. But, I'm just down in the dumps for some reason. It's like a virus I have that won't go away. People keep asking me whats wrong, but I don't know. I'm just weird I guess.

Anyway, I'm gone. Matt should be calling in a minute or two. I love being in love :)

Peace out everyone!

So, a friend of mine, named Isaac called yesterday. He hadn't heard from me inlike two weeks and he thought I died. Well, to those of you who missed me, I'm alive and well... okay, maybe not well, but alive. I have tons of homework and tests to study for.

Today I have work from 9-11, and then 3:30-5.
In between I have French & rhetoric. i have an essay to do in Rhetoric class, one that I'm not prepared for at all.

So, this w/e, I am going to sleep. Really. Because betweenthis second and Friday after I get out of class, I will probably only get about 14 hours of sleep combined. No, for real. My advice to those of you who are A-going to college, B-actually studying something hard, and C-getting more than your Mrs. degree... Pace yourself. You will regret it if you don't. I have a migraine right now, but it doesnt matter, because I have too much to do. Peace out everyone. Have a good day... :)

Five CDs from your collection that you will never get tired of:
1. Michael Buble "It's time"
2. Sara Evans "Born to Fly"
3. Relient K's "Mmhhhmm"
4. "Remembering Patsy Cline"
5. Toby Mac- "Diverse City

Four vacations you have taken:
1. Italy- Summer 03
2. New York: Thanksgiving 03.
3. Atlanta a lot...
4. Virginia for SB 05

Four songs you get stuck in your head frequently:
1. "Probably wouldn't be this way" by LeeAnn Rimes
2. "Dirty Little Secret" by All-American Rejects
3. "Dumb Girls" Lucy Woodward
4. "God Bless the Broken Road" by Rascal Flatts... :)

Four things you'd like to learn:
1. how to speak French fluently
2. how to be content with myself
3. how to sing
4. how to play the guitar

Four beverages you drink frequently:
1. diet coke
2. sunkist
3. water
4. lemonade

Four places to go in your area:
1. my apartment. It's awesome.
2. The Ferg.
3. Bryant-Denny Stadium
4. The Mall

Four things to do when you're bored:
1. get online
2. sleep
3. burn CDs
4. eat

Four things that never fail to cheer you up:
1. eating
2. the ring of "God bless the broken road" on my phone :)
3. hanging out with H. Lee
4. sleeping

About 20 years ago...
1. Matt was born! His birthday is Saturday! Woo Hoo!
2. Raegan was president.
3. My parents bought their first house
4. Gas was cheap!!!

About 10 years ago...
1. I was starting 4th grade at Clark Magnet School
2. I was best friends with Lacy Henderson, Thea Evans, and Alison Norwood.
3. I was sickly thin... Cari Kelly called me "chicken legs" lol
4. I was playing softball at Wright Park

About 5 years ago...
1. I was starting Satsuma.
2. I liked a new boy every week. No, for real. Ask Anyone.
3. I was a cheerleader. I know, it scares me too!
4. I rode to school with Heather Lee. :)

About 2 years ago...
1. I was starting my senior year!
2. I was dating whats-his-name
3. I was the editor-in-chief of Gator Gazette
4. Heather started Faulkner. I cried. :(

About 1 year ago...
1. I started the Univ. of South AL.
2. I lived on campus with Mischa.
3. I did NOT join a sorority.
4. I learned how to wash my clothes.

Today:
1. I went to work,
2. I went to French, ate lunch, and went to Communications class.
3. I went to work again.
4. I talked to my grandmother on the phone.

Sorry, I'm obsessed with that song... So, I figured I should update. I went to Auburn this w/e to see Matt, and i had an awesome time. Right now, i'm sitting in Heather's living room, waiting on her to get out of the shower so we can go to bed. We have a 9:30 class in the morning.

I had so much fun in Auburn this weekend! Matt, Cody, Bilbo, and I went to Hooter's on Friday night and ate dinner around 9ish. I had the quesadillas, which were okay... Anyway, so on Saturday, we, along with Buck and two friends, and a fun girl named Kim, went to the Auburn/Miss. St. game. It was my first Auburn game, and part of me felt silly for being there, but I had tons of fun with Matt, and I enjoyed every minute with him. We watched some episodes of 'House' this weekend, and I am beginning to be hooked on the show. It comes on Tuesdays on Fox from what Matt told me. I'm not sure of the time, but oh well. The new season starts on like the 20th maybe? hmm i dont know. So the weekend was relaxing, and I got to spend time with Matt. :)

I realized something earlier. I have been thinking to myself that I'm such a "failure" or whatever because I still am not completely sure of what direction I'm headed in career-wise. But after reading other people's Myspace/LJ/Facebook, I realize that there are a lot of people who are like me. This makes me feel better.

So I have two "choices" i'm kinda thinking about right now. 1- I can keep my schedule the way it is now- Major in Journalism, minor in PolySci, and graduate in 2007 and not be stressed, or 2- I can double major, which could help me figure out exactly what I want to do and looks better for law school apps. The second choice would mean more stress, more money for tuition, books, rent, etc, but in the end would probably be worth it. I am just scared to jump like that when I am really still unsure about a career. Oh well. Any ideas?

I'm going to bed now, I just heard heather turn the shower off. Night night everyone!

So, today was pretty good, despite the fact that my car (which I am still paying for) completely stalled in the middle of McFarland Blvd. I almost cried... but I'm ok now.

I am headed to Improv night at Valley View Baptist. I am going by myself because Rachel is sick and Heather doesn't want to go. I am kinda upset about it though. I just wish I could meet more people. Once again, I have to do things by myself. Not that I'm saying anything about them, they have no obligation to go with me anywhere. It just sucks to be the girl that goes with friends everywhere they want to go, and then I can't even find one friend to go to Improv night with me. I thought about calling Jessie to see if she wanted to go, but I'm sure she and her roomies are busy because they have a life, unlike me. I wish I lived with my best friends. I have to drive like across town to get to either apartment, and it sucks. Especially since every time I go, I have to pay $523.94 for a tank of gas. Ridiculous. Anyway, I shouldn't be complaining. At least I still have a home. :(

So, if you are one of the like 4 friends I have who actually read this, say a little prayer for me or think of me or whatever. I really want to make some friends here. It's just hard being non-Greek and being a transfer. :( I want to hang out and meet people, but lately all I do is sit around and eat or something...

I miss Matt. Thats why I am moody. Sorry :(

ok, so if you read this before 6:47 and you live within 14 minutes of my apartment, and you are bored, Call me. I will come and get you and we will go to Improv night. That's it. Talk to you later...

So this week has been rough. My best friends are finally in T-town, which is good considering I was alone before they got here. I've been very moody today and the rest of this week. Tomorrow's Friday, and I am very glad. I just feel weird for some reason...

My classes are very good, so far. I have three classes with Heather, and one with Stacy. College is scary, so I'm glad they're close by. Tomorrow, at 4:30, myself, Heather, and Rachel are headed off to Birmingham for an overnight retreat with the BCM. Jessie is also going, which is cool, because we love stuff like this. I washed some clothes today between school and work, so I now have a clean room. Yay. Go me. Tomorrow, I have to go to the DMV to get a new drivers' license because I am irresponsible and have lost the first one I got. Oh well.

I miss Matt. I miss being able to cry to him when I have had a bad week. He's so busy now, and I hate bothering him with my drama because I know he has too much on his plate right now. He's wonderful, and I can't wait to see him again. This long distance relationship really makes you appreciate the time you do have together. I have learned to organize my days a lot more, and I realize that the next few years are going to be very difficult being so far apart. Part of me thinks about driving over there sometimes. Three hours. Not that bad of a drive, really. If I wasn't going on that retreat this w/e, I might have thought about it.

I'm at the HRS apt. right now. Stacy is at work, and Rachel and Heather are in the kitchen reading Cosmo, which is the best magazine on the planet. Stacy changed her major today. She changed to Education. I wish I knew what to do. I mean, part of me wants to be a lwayer, but part of me wants to do so many other things. It's crazy. I think I am going to double major in Journalism and Education and graduate on time instead of a year early, because I am clueless right now. I really would like to travel and live on my own and get a job and all before getting married, and the way school is going, it will be a long time before I hear that four word sentence. I hate being an adult. It sucks. I'm not ready to grow up yet. I still want to enjoy life. I think I am giving myself a headache thinking too much... Oh well, I'm out. Goodnight everyone... :)

Ok, I'm putting recent events in bullet form because there's so many:

1. Got locked out of my apt, yesterday 3:30
2. Roommate is in Enterprise, AL. Spare key in my bedroom.
3. Property Manager wouldn't answer phone/door yesterday
4. Had to stay at Heather Rachel & stacy's last night
5. Got clothes for work at Wal Mart this morning 8 am
6. My phone is dead, charger inside of apt.
7. Car keys on same keyring.
8. Heather let me borrow her car so I could go to work.
9. Havent found my classes yet, school starts tomorrow.
10. Havent talked to Matt since last night. :(

Ok, so its been a bad week. And its only Tuesday. :(

Yeah, sorry I haven't updated in a week. But oh, well. Here's the latest.

Matt was here this w/e. :) I loved every moment of it. He is wonderful and I miss him tons. :( When he first got here on Friday afternoon, I was so happy to see him! On Saturday, he was sweet enough to come with me to Stacy, Heather and Rachel's apt to help them move in. What a sweetie :). Then, we grabbed some food at WingZone, and then headed back to my apt. We saw '40 year old virgin' on Saturday night. That movie was sooo funny! I love seeing funny movies with Matt. He has a great personality. He has class early in the morning, so hopefully he will call me to chat while he is getting ready....
Today, as Matt was driving home to Auburn, I drove to this church called Valley View Baptist for Bible Study and Worship. As I walk in, I see Kyle and Jessie there, so I knew them. That was cool. The guy that does the Bible Study is really funny, and then the worship service was really good also. Then, after church, i went over to my cousin's house, and he, his wife, and their two kids, and I had lunch. They're incredibly cool adults. Love them bunches.
Afterwards, I drove home, and met Heather and her mom so they could see the new apt. After they left,I hopped into my car and headed to the Phi Mu house to see Tabitha and an old friend, Kellie. I went to Heather's apt. next, and we got ready and myself, her, and Rachel went to night church. After night church, we followed the youth guy to the Campus Ministries Block party on University Blvd. Free ice cream, drinks, and popcorn. I met some cool people, and also randomly re-met people from Clark. Very weird, but cool.
Then, we ran into Sara Wright, whom I haven't seen in ages. I kidnapped her and took her back to Heather, Stacy, & Rachel's apt. We sat around playing BullCrap and then had some Hamburger Helper. I left around 11:45, and dropped Sara back off at her dorm, and then came back home. I am so tired, and I have to be at work in the morning at 9.

I'm out, goodnight everyone :)

So, i just returned from Auburn about 15 minutes ago. Tabby's not here, so I am thinking she's out doing sorority stuff or maybe shopping or something. Her Rush stuff starts this week, and I'm very excited for her. I have never had the urge to join a sorority, but I'm still happy for her.

This weekend was a lot of fun. I drove to Auburn Friday afternoon, and stayed up with Matt as he finished his portfolio and studied for his exam on Sat. morning. Then, we met his dad and cindi at the Foy building. Matt left to go take his exam, and we sat through a Q & A session about Pharmacy school. Afterwards, all 125 students, and their family/friends had lunch. Then, we went to an auditorium and Matt got his White Coat. We took some fun pictures in front of the buildings on campus, and then we went back to his house. Some of Matt and Cody's friends came over and we sat around for a while just talking and being silly, then we went to Sonic. After that, we all threw the football in the middle of the road as we dodged cars. Great fun :). Today, I got really sad when I left. I miss him already. He is not just my boyfriend, but my best friend too.

I started rambling on and on about getting married this weekend, but Matt was as sweet as always and suggested an Auburn themed wedding. I quickly told him that I refuse to have an Auburn wedding. He then said he was going to buy me an auburn engagement ring. I told him to be expecting a "no" to that question if the ring is blue and orange. The only thing that will be Auburn is his groom's cake. If he doesn't like it, tough. My whole family is Bama fans...:)

I also starting giving out dating advice this weekend like I was Dr. Phil or something. Craziness.

I'm headed over to check out Kyle's dorm. He's living in Riverside, the very nice freshmen dorms. So, have a good afternoon people. Talk to ya'll later. :)

Sorry, the tune "Cardboard Castles" is in my head... Its about 1:30 pm and I am just sitting in my room trying to clean up and pack my clothes for this weekend. I am driving three hours to Auburn to see Matt at his white coat ceremony. I am so proud of him, and very glad that I get to see him after this long week...

Tabby and I woke up around 9:00ish I think, and we've just been sitting around, washing clothes and watching Will & Grace episodes on my computer ever since we woke up. I love Will & Grace. It's such a fun show... Anyway, I will be headed to Auburn, and then Matt is going to show me where the Foy Center is because I am horrible with directions. I hope everyone has a great weekend, I will be back Sunday morning. :)

So this is it. This second is the last time I'll update before the move. We're leaving at 8:30 am.... in 7 hours. There's so much going through my head, and I can't sleep. I feel completely chaotic. It's weird.

Today, I had lunch with my grandparents, my mom, sisters, and my aunt. I really wanted to see my cousin Chelsea before I left, but she didn't come. I wasn't really upset about that, I just really like having her around. She's the coolest. Anyway, my aunt gave me a shirt, some shorts and a bag, all with Alabama imprinted on them. It was pretty cool to get presents, especially when you're as broke as I am.

I spent some time this afternoon over at my grandparents house after that. I really am freaking out about not being close to them. My grandmother is my best friend, and she is sometimes the only family member on my side. I don't really cxommunicate with my immediate family, but to her, I can tell her anything. She has Chron's disease, which makes her very tired, a lot. It makes me very nervous to move away from her. Her husband, my step-grandfather is disabled, so they basically take care of each other. Last week, she had me call Dell and order her a laptop so that she could keep in touch with her kids, grandkids, and friends. It came in today, and I helped her set it up. Then, I saw her take the laptop over to her husband, and put it in his lap. She is trying to teach him how to type so that he can communicate with us, because he can't speak. I just watched her in awe. Here she is, teaching her husband how to send e-mail to his son. He isn't just typing slow, but he is still trying to figure out where the space bar is. It must have taken him 5 minutes to type the word "Hello".

Then it hit me, she loves him. She does everything for him, and never complains one bit. I loved watching her try to get him to type. It felt good after the crazy week I have had.... I am already crying, so I will change the subject.

Matt came over tonight and helped me get some of my stuff into my car. My dad was suppossed to get off work at 6, but because his boss is a jerk, he didn't get home until 9:45. Matt was very patient with me and helped me cram my junk into my little Civic. I kept fussing and bossing him around, but he kept helping me. I'm so lucky to have such a great guy in my life. He's incredible in every way.

I am kinda scared to leave. I want to, don't get me wrong. But, all my friends won't be there until later this month. It's a weird feeling.

I have a job interview Monday morning, 9:00. It's for the exact same position I had at my old job, so we'll see.

I hope everyone has a great weekend, and I will update you on the move later. Wish me luck, because the family is coming with me. Well, all but Natalie, because she doesn;t like me. But oh, well. Her loss. Anyway, talk to you all later.

So, I am almost out of my mood. I think it has something to do with the amount of Benadryl Cold Medicine I have been taking for the past week... I apologize for the mood.

I think I have patched things up since the last posting. I really upset someone, but I think they know that I am truly sorry and that my intentions were never to upset them in any way. I could go on and on... but I won't, because I'm very delirious right now.

Today is my errand day. I have to run pick up my table from Mobile Glass, take my sister to get her hair cut, go get my long overdue paycheck of $41, and retrieve my purple polo from Tiffany Ramirez's car... so the day hasn't even started yet.

Matt is taking his final tomorrow and then driving home, and I am thrilled. On Saturday, we will have been dating for six months. I will be leaving for Tuscaloosa on Saturday, so I am thinking we will rent a movie or something on Friday night. :) I am so happy, and I have never felt like this about anyone.

I hope everyone enjoys their week. It's only Wednesday, so that means we still have half a week to go. I'm out.

Why am I so mean? I don't know. I really can't figure it out. I am pretty cold and evil and I don't know why. Recent events have shown me how I am pushing people away and being a complete witch to them. I hurt someone and I don't know how to fix it. I have apologized over and over, but because of the state of our friendship, things are complicated. I feel like crying. A Lot.

So here I am. Sitting here on my computer, so lost.

I have to run errands with my mom today, but part of me just wants to get back in my bed and cry. I hate being a girl. I hate being moody. I hate being so freakin emotional. I have done nothing but whine, complain, and pout since last week. I need some medicine. Oh yeah, speaking of meds, I am officially dying of a cold. I feel like crap, and I'm stuck here all alone in this house.

Did I mention in exactly 4 days I am leaving this place for good? Thank Goodness.

So, I decided to copy Bonnie & Jamie's LJ with the "X things I wanna do before I'm X"
I chose X=24

1. Graduate college.
2. Get a cell phone that actually works.
3. Learn to finally accept my feet.
4. Go to Italy again.
5. Get married.
6. Plan to have kids.
7. Get a tattoo.
8. See a play on Broadway.
9. Fit back into my trail dress for one trail reunion.
10. Pay off my college loans.
11. Build my own house.
12. Get a truck.
13. Get in shape for my high school reunion in 2014...
14. Become financially independent. No loans, no credit cards, etc.
15. Make amends to people I have hurt.
16. Learn to play golf.
17. Learn to play the guitar.
18. Be confident enough to walk down the beach in a bikini.
19. Get a six-pack (my stomach, not beer)
20. Learn to sing.
21. Learn to speak French & Spanish.
22. Learn sign language.
23. Eat at an expensive restaurant.
24. Try lettuce, tomatoes, peppers, & squash ONCE


Ok, ok, I know I'm weird. But that's okay... you know you love me! :)

Hello? Is anyone listening. I doubt it. No one reads this stupid thing anyway. So, I guess I can rant and rave.

Here's my list of things bugging me:
1. I'm at work again.
2. I realized I'm broke.
3. I realized I need a makeover. Seriously...
4. I stress other people out.
5. I stress myself out.
6. I try to fix things I can't control.
7. I'm so not excited about moving like I should be.
8. I haven't spoken to my old friends in like forever.
9. I wish I could fast forward like 2 years.
10. I miss Matt soooo bad. :(

Ok, I'm done ranting. Peace out.

So, I really like thise new music by Michael Buble. He's a Canadian singer who's very "soulful"... Check him out.

Here's the lyrics to his new song. It's called "Home." In a way, it reminds me of how much I miss Matt :(. He's only a phone call away, but I still miss him a lot. Plus the reference of 'Rome' reminds me of him too... :)

"Home"
Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

I'm watching MadTV on Comedy Central right now. It's been a while since I had the time to sit down and actually watch t.v. The news stations are making me too nervous about the storm, and nothing else worth watching was on. Right now, the storm is moving about 150 mph and is moving over Cuba.

I'm also kinda upset about the terrorism attacks in London. My mom grew up in London, so I feel some sort of weird feeling towards it. Right now, the death toll is about 150. That's creepy and sick.

From what I have been hearing on MSNBC, the Chief Justice of the Supremem Court, William Renquist, might announce his retirement today. Being the nerd that I am, I am hoping that, with one or two open spots on the court, President Bush will appoint someone that can impact our country in a positive way...

Anyway, I was out of class early today because my teacher was packing up and leaving town. So, I came home and I've been very lazy since then...

I'm probably gonna ride over to watch a movie with Heather/Jessie/Kyle/Random friend... So, have a good w/e everyone, and stay inside!!!

Fill it out. Do it. I said so. No, really. Please...

1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Fave Movie:
5. Fave Song:
6. Fave Band:
7. Most Embarassing Moment:
8. Are you a virgin?

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...
1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush on me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. ...with tongue?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever want me 2 ask you out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11.Would you walk on the beach with me?
12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
13. Do you/have you talk shit about me?
14. Do you think I'm a good person?
15. Would you let me sleep with you (in the same bed)?
17.Do you think I'm hot?
18. If you could change anything about me -would you?
19.Would you have sex with me?
20.Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?
21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

I'm at work again... uggghhh. Oh well, the money is nice, though. I have just spent four days with my incredibly amazing boyfriend. And, now he's gone. Me = sadness. It's kinda weird though, I mean I have known him for a long time, and every time he comes home, I get all butterfly-ish and giddy like a 16-year old. He's awesome. I can't begin to describe him... We hung out Friday after I got out of class and then spent Saturday, Sunday and Monday together. I never get bored hanging out with him.

So, I'm in the mood to go to T-town. You'd think I wouldn't be so hyper about it since I'm moving there in exactly one month, but I am. Jessie and some people are going, and I thought about driving up on Friday after I got off work and stay with my cousin or maybe in Tiffany's apartment. We'll see...

Sometimes, I look back and think, "Thank God high school is over." but then others, I think "Why did I not enjoy it more?"... So to all my Senior friends, SOAK IT UP! Spend as much time as possible with your pals. Oh, and be careful. One stupid prank, one stupid "toilet paper action" could get your diploma taken away... Don't piss off any teachers, you'll need reccomendation letters. Trust me.

Ok, so my whining and preaching is over. I know you all enjoyed it.